One of the worst days of my life
May. 18th, 2017 11:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
heysayheyheytoday has been one of the worst days of my life, my life is really a mess right now and today's news
couldnt make it any worse, today one of the persons i admire the most has died, i cant express how i feel.
Chris cornell is gone and so is a lot of things, i grow up with his music and audioslave's, i had share so many
wondeful memories with my family because of him and audioslave, i have just sadness in me right now.
Today i got my copy of kame to yamapi's single but im not even exited or happy, i just have horrible feelings
right now, i keep thinking of my dad who left me and my family and it makes me sad, because of my dad we grew
up listening to rock music and i have wonderful memories and sad ones, but now that chris cornell is gone
i feel a hole, emptiness in my self.
My life right now is really messy, i cant find a job i can stay in, family problems and school is the only place i find
consolation and music, i feel so preasured with my mom, even though she says she doesnt pressure me, she does
always reminding us me and my brothers of money, is just too much, i cant even buy anything i like because it always
turns into a money chat, whenever i can, i want to buy things for me. I really never do it much, but when i do i feel
terrible about it because of our financial situation, todays news was just a cherry on top of the cake.
I had to pretend to be sick today at work because i couldnt stop my tears from falling.
People barely understand this feelings of us who have admiration for a singler or musician, they think of us as ridiculous
so I really didnt want people to call me that today if i said why i was crying, i wouldnt be able to take it.
Today is just a horrible day.
I have nothing else to say, i wish i could say things get easier but they dont, i just have to keep trying not to sink in a hole of darkess, and is a sad thing once you fall into it, is really hard to get out.
I have to let this out at least here, nobody really understands how i feel, so i need to write it, maybe somebody can understan me :,(
couldnt make it any worse, today one of the persons i admire the most has died, i cant express how i feel.
Chris cornell is gone and so is a lot of things, i grow up with his music and audioslave's, i had share so many
wondeful memories with my family because of him and audioslave, i have just sadness in me right now.
Today i got my copy of kame to yamapi's single but im not even exited or happy, i just have horrible feelings
right now, i keep thinking of my dad who left me and my family and it makes me sad, because of my dad we grew
up listening to rock music and i have wonderful memories and sad ones, but now that chris cornell is gone
i feel a hole, emptiness in my self.
My life right now is really messy, i cant find a job i can stay in, family problems and school is the only place i find
consolation and music, i feel so preasured with my mom, even though she says she doesnt pressure me, she does
always reminding us me and my brothers of money, is just too much, i cant even buy anything i like because it always
turns into a money chat, whenever i can, i want to buy things for me. I really never do it much, but when i do i feel
terrible about it because of our financial situation, todays news was just a cherry on top of the cake.
I had to pretend to be sick today at work because i couldnt stop my tears from falling.
People barely understand this feelings of us who have admiration for a singler or musician, they think of us as ridiculous
so I really didnt want people to call me that today if i said why i was crying, i wouldnt be able to take it.
Today is just a horrible day.
I have nothing else to say, i wish i could say things get easier but they dont, i just have to keep trying not to sink in a hole of darkess, and is a sad thing once you fall into it, is really hard to get out.
I have to let this out at least here, nobody really understands how i feel, so i need to write it, maybe somebody can understan me :,(
